Sunday, October 30, 2011

Not getting anywhere yet


I have not lost any weight since my last post. As a matter of fact, my weight has been around 182-183 mark for the last month. I tried going on a high protein diet, but felt sick and crabby while on it. My job responsibilities changed about a month ago, so I'm in a new building with new people. So instead of having 2 shorter breaks and eating twice a day, I've been having a larger meal once a day at work. I thought maybe that would help me lose weight, but it hasn't made a difference either. I know what I need to do. I know I need to track my calories and eat below my maintain weight calories, but I still want a short cut. I don't want to be hungry at my job because I have had a hard enough time not being crabby as it is. If I'm hungry I'll have a really short fuse. As soon as I get home I usually am hungry and I want to emotionally eat. This weekend I've managed to keep my calories very low, but my husband is gone for the weekend, and I don't have to work, so I don't have the outside stress. Without the stress of every day life, I have the will power to go on a low calorie diet. I just wish I had that motivation when I have to actually deal with life.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Need to lose 30 pounds in 56 weeks


My sister has set her wedding date for October 6, 2012.  That means I have just over a year to lose about 25 to 30 pounds. I've been hovering around the high 170's for the past month.  A few days I even hit the 180 mark:(  So, I'm going to set my goal of weighing 150, which would mean losing about 30 pounds.  I keep thinking that the wedding is go far away that if I lose any weight now, I'll just gain it back, but then I realized that if I want to lose 30 pounds by next October, I'll need to lose slightly more than a half pound a week.  It would take 60 weeks to lose 30 pounds at the half pound a week rate and the wedding is only a little over 56 weeks away.  So, I better get going!

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Uh Oh, I was asked to be the matron of honor...

I've really let myself go.  I have gained ALL the weight back.  As a matter of fact, I had deja vu last weekend while at my husband's uncle's funeral. I was wearing the black pants that I mentioned in my Spark People post in August 2009, and they were once again way too tight to be comfortable in. So the first thing I did when I got home was weigh myself.  I weighed in at 180.5.  Two years later and all my work I did to lose 35 pounds is gone!  I'm so disappointed in myself.

I have not started counting calories again, but I have been purposely trying to eat a little less. I weighed in at 174.5 this morning, so I'm making some progress already.  Also, when ever we go to visit my husband's family I tend to gain some water weight.  We usually spend a few days there since it's over a 4 hour drive.  But that usually means we stop for salty fast food on the way there and back. Also, we usually eat out sometime during the weekend.  This might be a little TMI, but I usually am a little constipated whenever I visit, maybe because my subconscious is not as comfortable with me doing number 2 in someone else's house. So after just getting back to my routine for a couple days, I was at 174.5 by Tuesday and have been around that number each day since.

So I was already trying to motivate myself to eat less this week and then on Wednesday I was asked to be the matron of honor at my sister's wedding!  Now I have something to really get me motivated to lose weight again. The only problem is the wedding isn't until October 2012, so I don't feel a sense of urgency yet.  I feel like I'll just gain back any weight I lose now.

Friday, May 27, 2011

Weigh In #9 - Whoops!

I feel like I've been so busy lately, so I have not bothered to track calories, go to the gym more than the minimum amounts of time to get an insurance rebate, or to even weigh myself.  In the last few days I've noticed I look big again, so tonight I finally dug the scale out of the cabinet and weighed in.  I'm almost 170 pounds!  The exact number was 169.4.  Wow.  A year ago I was hovering around 145, so I have put on 25 pounds.  My absolute heaviest I have been was 180, but even then that was after a weekend of excessive eating, and I was usually around 175, so I'm only a few pounds shy of going back to my heaviest.  It took me about 9 months to lose the weight before and now all that hard work is out the window.  At least this time I know I can do it.  Prior to August of 2009 I had never had much success in losing more than 5 pounds, but when I actually took the time to track calories, it actually worked.  I did that for about a year, but when I started my new job in August 2010, I felt like I didn't have the time to track anymore and also not as much time to exercise.  I still have the same job, but I NEED to make the time. I also have another reason to get back on track. My sister is getting married in fall 2012.  I'm assuming she will be asking me to be a part of the bridal party, so I want to look good for that.  I almost wish it wasn't so far away because I need motivation.  If it was fall of this year, I think I'd have a little more drive to do what I need to do to.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Emotional Eating and Weigh-In #8

I've really been dealing with a lot of emotional eating lately.  I just don't know how to get happy.  Tuesday I was feeling even more down than normal, so I went to the store and bought some donuts, chips, cookies and chocolate candy. I also bought a bottle of "St. John's Wort".  I've never used that before, but I was feeling desperate.  So for the past two mornings I took a pill and I have to say I feel a little better.  The only bad thing is I still have some left over junk food in the house.  I just weighed in and I'm 164.5:(  I know some of that is due to eating very poorly the last few days.  I'm going to meet an old friend from school in 2 weeks and I haven't seen her in over 10 years. She is one of those people with a perfect body - I'm jealous of the  photos of her on vacation that she posted on Facebook.  In several photos she was on the beach and a bikini.  So, I was really motivated to lose some weight a week ago, but when I'm feeling low I really don't care.  Now I just need to keep reminding myself about seeing my old friend and maybe I can drop at least a couple pounds.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Weigh in #7

Just weighed in for the first time in a while, and I am 163.2. So I think that's one of my higher weights since I started this blog.  I didn't eat very well today.  There were free donuts at work, so I had 2 of them.  Then I had a Totino's party pizza for lunch - the whole thing, and then when I got home from work, I went to the drive thru at Burger King and had 2 BK stackers and onion rings. Once I finished that, I had some ice cream.  Sadly, I think sometimes food is one of my few joys in life when I don't do much else besides the same routine of get up way too early, drag my butt out of bed, go to work, come home and maybe have an hour to myself before my husband gets home from work, then I make dinner and maybe spend some time online or watching a tv show, and then go to bed. Because my time is so limited, I rarely want to spend any of my evenings exercising. So sadly I know I need to start losing weight again, but I just can't seem to get motivated to eat better and take some of my precious free time and spend it at the gym. It's times like this I wish there was a weight loss pill that worked.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Trying an experiment and weigh in #6

I've heard that sleep is an essential part of losing weight.  There is an article from Psychology Today which says you actually burn more calories sleeping.  I was listening to a radio interview the other day in which a woman lost 7 pounds in 10 weeks just by getting enough sleep. I've gained quite a bit of weight since I started my new job, and I think it's partially to do with cutting back on sleep.  I'm still getting between 7 and 8 hours most nights, but I think I need about 8.5. So I'm going to try to get to bed earlier (since unfortunately I can't sleep in any later because of work) and see if I start losing weight. 

Oh and by the way, the weigh in this week was 160.8.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Weeky Weigh In #5

My weight today is 162.7. Yesterday I found a couple pairs of jeans that I forgot I had.  They are size 14 and they fit.  I was a size 10 just 6 months ago. My size 12's are getting tight. I'm going on vacation in less than 2 months and I don't want to look fat in my photos, but I'm still not remembering that when I want to eat.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Weekly Weigh-In #4

162.5

So pretty much a maintain right now.  I really want to lose 15 pounds, but I just can't seem to motivate myself lately.  It's 2 degrees today.  The good news is it's supposed to be in the high 30's this weekend!  As long as it doesn't snow (which wouldn't surprise me since this winter has been particularly miserable), I should be able to get some nice outdoor walks in!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Weekly Weigh In #3

Just weighed myself, and I was 162.9.  I had weighed myself a few days ago and was 159, and I know I had a big dinner today, so I'm not too concerned with the .7 gain. I had mentioned in my last update that I would concentrate on exercise this week, but I think I actually paid more attention to food.  I did have a bad food day today, but I did ok the rest of the week. I have to work on portion control this week.

Monday, January 24, 2011

Weekly Weigh-In #2

Well I gained, but only .1 pound. I was 162.2 this week. I hate to say I'm still not motivated to cut back on calories. I'm not really motivated to go to the gym either. I get home and I just want to relax. I guess if I had to pick one though, I'd choose the exercise over cutting back on food and being hungry often. So this week, I'm going to try to move my body more!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

58 Easy Ideas to Help You Lose Weight

Reader's Digest put together a list of easy ideas to lose weight.

1. Once a week, indulge in a high-calorie-tasting, but low-calorie, treat.

2. Treat high-calorie foods as jewels in the crown.

3. After breakfast, make water your primary drink.

4. Carry a palm-size notebook everywhere you go for one week.

5. Buy a pedometer, clip it to your belt, and aim for an extra 1,000 steps a day.

6. Add 10 percent to the amount of daily calories you think you’re eating, then adjust your eating habits accordingly.

7. Eat five or six small meals or snacks a day instead of three large meals.

8. Walk for 45 minutes a day.

9. Find an online weight-loss buddy.

10. Bring the color blue into your life more often.

11. Clean your closet of the “fat” clothes.

12. Downsize your dinner plates.

13. Serve your dinner restaurant style (food on the plates) rather than family style (food served in bowls and on platters on the table).

14. Hang a mirror opposite your seat at the table.

15. Put out a vegetable platter.

16. Use vegetables to bulk up meals.

17. Eat one less cookie a day.

18. Avoid white foods.

19. Switch to ordinary coffee.

20. Use nonfat powdered milk in coffee.

21. Eat cereal for breakfast five days a week.

22. Pare your portions.

23. Eat 90 percent of your meals at home.

24. Avoid any prepared food that lists sugar, fructose, or corn syrup among the first four ingredients on the label.

25. Eat slowly and calmly.

26. Eat only when you hear your stomach growling.

27. Find ways other than eating to express love, tame stress, and relieve boredom.

28. State the positive.

29. Discover your dietary point of preference.

30. Use flavorings such as hot sauce, salsa, and Cajun seasonings instead of relying on butter and creamy or sugary sauces.

31. Eat fruit instead of drinking fruit juice.

32. Spend 10 minutes a day walking up and down stairs.

33. Eat equal portions of vegetables and grains at dinner.

34. Get up and walk around the office or your home for five minutes at least every two hours.

35. Wash something thoroughly once a week — a floor, a couple of windows, the shower stall, bathroom tile, or your car.

36. Make one social outing this week an active one.

37. Order the smallest portion of everything.

38. Switch from regular milk to 2%.

39. Take a walk before dinner.

40. Substitute a handful of almonds in place of a sugary snack.

41. Eat a frozen dinner.

42. Don’t eat with a large group.

43. Watch one less hour of TV.

44. Get most of your calories before noon.

45. Close out the kitchen after dinner.

46. Sniff a banana, an apple, or a peppermint when you feel hungry.

47. Order wine by the glass, not the bottle.

48. Watch every morsel you put in your mouth on weekends.

49. Stock your refrigerator with low-fat yogurt.

50. Order your dressing on the side and then stick a fork in it — not your salad.

51. Brush your teeth after every meal, especially after dinner.

52. Serve individual courses rather than piling everything on one plate.

53. Passionately kiss your partner 10 times a day.

54. Add hot peppers to your pasta sauce.

55. Pack nutritious snacks.

56. When you shop, choose nutritious foods based on these four simple rules:
1. Avoid partially hydrogenated.
2. Avoid high fructose corn syrup.
3. Choose a short ingredient list over long; there will be fewer flavor enhancers and empty calories.
4. Look for more than two grams of fiber per 100 calories in all grain products (cereal, bread, crackers, and chips)

57. Weed out calories you’ve been overlooking: spreads, dressings, sauces, condiments, drinks, and snacks.

58. When you’re eating out with friends or family, dress up in your most flattering outfit.

Visit their site for more details on each of these tips!

Monday, January 17, 2011

Weekly weigh-in: #1

I'm going to start posting my weekly weigh ins here to hopefully help motivate myself.  My weigh in this week is 162.1.  I think I was 164 point something last time I weighed in, so I guess I'm doing alright. I feel like my pants are tighter though. I'm still not tracking calories and I'm still not exercising regularly.  I went to the gym yesterday, but only for 25 minutes.  I know if I went for an hour it would really help burn some fat. I'm concerned I may be coming down with a cold, so hopefully that won't make me feel even more unmotivated.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

My husband's weight loss plan

My husband is also trying to lose weight.  He even joined a biggest loser type weight loss competition, so he is taking some extra steps to try to lose weight.  He signed up for a personal trainer once a week and a few days ago he talked to a nutritionist.  I didn't hear exactly what they talked about, but one of the things he came away with is he needs to have more protein. His diet is not as good as mine, but I think I need to incorporate more protein into my diet as well.  He said he asked the nutritionist how he can get more energy without eating more calories, and eating more protein was a suggestion.  Protein is digested more slowly then carbohydrates, so they should provide energy for a longer period of time.

So I think I'm going to try to eat more protein and see if I feel better and have more energy.  Of course this may not be the best week to test this since I'll be fighting my new work schedule, but we'll see how it goes.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Arrrgh... Counting Calories and My Stupid Job

I can attribute my weight loss success to counting calories, but for some reason, I'm having a hard time getting back into it.  I decided just for the short term, I'm at least going to write down everything I eat, but not figure out the calories. I find that often I don't know how many calories are in something and I should go back later to figure it out, but I always forget. But, the act of just writing down the food will get me going the right direction.  Also, when I have to write everything down, I'm more likely to think twice before I eat. Sometimes you just need to take "baby steps" as one of my favorite weight inspirations Shanti (Antishay) says.

And you know how I had written that it's really difficult to keep on a diet when I have to get up early for my job?  Well now I found out it's going to be even more difficult.  They are going to change my shift from 7am-3 to 6am-2.  It's a 1/2 hour commute, so I have to leave my house by 5:30AM, which will leave me very little time to make a good breakfast, but worst of all, I'll be super tired all day and whenever I'm tired I tend to reach for food to get more energy.  I don't know what to do to prevent overeating when sleep-deprived.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

My Weight Loss - A Brief History

I had a blog on Spark People that I posted on once in a while.  I thought I'd copy what I had written there to give you a better idea of my history:

Monday, August 31, 2009
I was just going to title this blog entry "Trying this again", then I noticed my last entry over 8 months ago was also titled that way. As you can probably guess, I have not not anything about it. On August 15th, I went to a wedding and was wearing my dress slacks, but I was so uncomfortable the whole day because my pants were so tight. So for the past week or so I have been tracking my daily calories. I was doing ok, but this weekend wasn't that great.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Just wanted to check in and write an update. I've been counting calories for the past 3 weeks or so. I've been trying to keep the calories I consume minus what I burn at the gym below 2200 per day, ideally around 1,700 per day. I've had a few bad days (going to the fair, spending a weekend with the family) but for the most part I've been keeping the calories in check and going to the gym nearly every day. I've usually been in the 176-180 pound range for a year or two. This morning I was 172.4. So, I'm making some progress!

Thursday, September 24, 2009
Apparently cold and flu season is upon us because I came down with a nasty sore throat yesterday. Today the throat is feeling a little better, but I feel weak and want some comfort food. Because I feel so weak, I don't want to exercise either. Hopefully this passes soon. On a happier note, I now weigh 169.1! I hit 169.8 last Friday and have been 169 point something every day the past week except Saturday (where I think I was 170 point something). So I'm definitely happy to be in the "160's" again! The scale hasn't gone down much this past week, but until this cold passes, I'll be happy just to maintain the 169 point something weight.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009
I've been around 165 for the past couple weeks. The weight loss has slowed down, but at least it hasn't gone in the wrong direction.  I'm still going to the gym almost every day. I usually go on the treadmill or elliptical. I know I should be doing some weight training along with the cardio, but I actually prefer the cardio, so it's difficult to get motivated to try weight training. They have a bunch of weight training machines at the gym, but I don't really know how to use them.

Monday, November 30, 2009
I'm happy to say I've been consistently in the 150's for a couple weeks! I've been averaging around 157-158 or so. On Thanksgiving I had a few relatives ask me if I'm losing weight, so it must be enough to notice. I'm running out of clothes - especially pants - to wear because they're too big on me. I hope I can maintain this weight and even drop another 10 or 15 pounds, but I haven't been eating very well and I'm sick so I haven't been exercising much. I hope to get back on track with my eating and exercise (once I'm feeling better) this week.

Thursday, January 14, 2010
I haven't updated in a while. I got as low as 151.8 recently, but a week of bad eating put me back to 156.7. I figured it would be ok if I maintain during the month of December because of the holidays and all the events that had food. I also thought it would be easier to eat better in the month of January since there will be less temptations and get togethers. However, so far I think I've eaten worse this month than last month. Some of the days I went over my calorie budget were from going out to eat with friends and family, but most of the days were just regular days that I over ate at home. So today I have set a small goal of just eating under 2000 calories. Ideally I'd like to be eating around 1700 a day, but 2000 would be just slightly under maintain weight calories. I'll let you know if I am successful in doing so (don't know if anyone will actually read this, but it's some accountability).

Thursday, January 14, 2010
As I mentioned in my previous blog, I will report back how many calories I ate today (my goal was just to eat less than 2,000). I'm happy to report I did meet my goal of eating under 2,000 calories! Actually I exceed my goal - I had 1,690 calories today! Let's make it 2 days in a row under 2,000!!

Friday, January 15, 2010
I ate 1940 calories today. Not as good as yesterday, but met my goal of being under 2000. Oh and I burned 220 at the gym, so that helps too.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010
I want to lose 5 more pounds before I leave for my vacation on May13... So I'm going to make it a goal to burn 17,500 calories through exercise (3,500 calories = 1 pound) by then. So I have to burn an average of 222 calories a day. Sounds simple enough, hopefully it'll work. Of course if I eat over my maintain weight calories, then I'll have to re-burn those calories.... so if I eat 300 over my daily calories, then I'll add those calories back to my running total.  So as of right now my running total is 17,300 :)

Saturday, March 20, 2010
I had to re-evaluate my 17,500 calorie challenge (see my last blog last entry). With my husband's grandpa dying and causing us to be out of town for 5 days in the beginning of the month, I didn't track my calories, and it really got me off track. I was looking at my chart and noticed I somehow my calculations got off by 965 calories and somehow got on the wrong day... I can't figure out where I made my errors, so I'm just going to scrap it and start over. I went through and reevaluated where I think I was, and it was at about 12,690 left to go (4,810 calories burned!). So I'm just going to start clean with a new goal: 12,500 calories burned in 50 days. That comes out to 250 calories burned a day. The same rules with overeating apply - if I eat over 2,000 calories, then I have to add those back into my total.  In other news, my size 12 jeans are literally falling off, so I guess I have to go shopping soon!

Wednesday, September 08, 2010
I got down to 145 pounds in May - June, but since then I have not been motivated to track as often and eat healthy. Now I'm dealing with a new challenge that is making if more difficult to keep the calories low - I have to get up at 5:30AM to get to my job. So by the time I get home from work, I need "energy" which is usually in the form of junk food. Since I'm not sleeping as much, I'm also eating more calories just because I'm awake more hours of the day, therefore eating more. And because I am tired and don't feel like exercising as much. It's frustrating! I weighed in at 152 last I checked... I don't want to gain this weight back:(

I never thought I'd put it all back on again...

I have created this blog to help motivate myself to re-lose the weight I had worked so hard to lose the first time. I guess the good thing is at least I know I can do it since I've did it before.

In August of 2009 I wore a pair of dress pants that were always comfortable before, but this time they were so tight that I would rather stand than sit because they were not as tight when I stood. I weighed myself the next day and found I was up to 180 pounds. I'm 5'10", so my ideal weight is between 140 and 150. I finally decided to start tracking my calories and slowly from August 2009 to May of 2010 I went from 180 to 145! Whenever I saw people I hadn't seen for a few months they'd always remark on how great I looked and ask me how I lost the weight. It was great and I thought 145 was my new normal.

I was a bridesmaid in a wedding in June, so I managed to keep my weight at 145, but once the wedding was over, I started to slack on tracking my calories. In August of 2010, I got a new job. Before I was working from home and doing some temp work here and there. This new job had me working 40 to 50 hours a week plus a 1/2 hour commute each way. With my time cut back, and having to get up early, I stopped tracking altogether. I kept telling myself I need to start again, but for some reason I felt like "next week" would be a better week to start eating better.

I weighed in a 164 this morning. So I have gained about 20 pounds back and am only about 16 pounds away from my all-time high. So now is the time to start getting back on track.